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Yes, I’m still writing up my winter adventures and am not ready to publish.  This weekend was dedicated to getting over a cold, which I did marvelously.  This week has been so insane that even I have skipped some meals because I was too busy to notice the time go by.  As you can tell by my posts, it’s been good insane, though.  One might argue about my priorities, but I’ve felt the burden to post and less need to finish all my German homework (don’t tell) or worry about what the other musicians will think of me.  Life at the Schola is coming along well but I’m beginning to wonder if I’ve signed up for too much.  No problem if I have, all of it’s voluntary!  I wonder if I’ll ever be able to have such freedom in later times of my life . . .

There is a lot I don’t understand.  What exactly does it mean to “mourn as if you were not mourning”?  What does “don’t worry, for the Lord knows you need these things” mean?  One thing is for sure, it doesn’t mean you will never go hungry.  For reasons I don’t understand God has blessed me beyond (my feeble) believe and keeps blessing me in so many big and small ways.  I don’t understand what I’ve “done” to “deserve” this other than I don’t deserve it at all.  Yet I will rejoice and thank my God for everything he does and IS.  I know there will be a season where I don’t find myself to be blessed, and maybe that’s the meaning of “be happy as if you were not”:  simply realizing in our rejoicing that our circumstances are temporary and beyond our control.  I rest in the knowledge that God has the very best, most amazing plan for me, even though (because?) it will include times of struggle and trial.  Given all he’s done so far I wait excitedly to see what he’s going to do next!  His imagination is infinitely better than mine and no matter what I dream up he’ll always surprise me with something more beautiful!

Some may disagree, but for me, it’s easier to be different when it’s obvious.  There’s no decision to make about when to boldly state my position at the risk of being obnoxiously contradictory, and when to stay respectfully silent at the risk of appearing ashamed of my beliefs.  When it’s obvious it’s up to the world around me to choose to comment or not.  I also know what I’m getting myself into and can be prepared for the shocked reactions of those who haven’t had their imaginations opened up yet.

I hate to disappoint you again with a post without any beautiful pictures of the Swiss Alps, but once again something else is on my mind.  I am reading a most unlikely book and though I am only 27 pages into it I am pleasantly surprised.  “The God Delusion” by Richard Dawkins was sitting on the dining room table and I just couldn’t resist a peak.

I’m working on the write up of my traveling adventures, but it seems each hour of fun takes an hour to write about.  This week has been “simply” work, so it won’t take so much time to write about.  Plus there are no pictures to label and sort and upload . . .

I know you are hoping for the story of my adventure in Graubünden, but this is on my mind.  I am the first to admit my ignorance of world events and slowly I’m trying to change that.  It means not always doing my German homework (gasp!) and sorting through loads of completely contradictory information.